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I havent written in this thing is so long. So much has happened and I'm finally at the point where I can write about it without getting to upset where I have to stop. James and I broke up. We've been broken up for about a month and a half. We still talk almost everyday and we hang out too. I guess we just fell out of love, which happens. I was stupid enough to think that I was actually going to marry him and that he was "the one". We both said that he tried more in the begining and I tried more in the end. Of course I still have feelings for him and he still has them for me. Part of me wants to be with him but part of me doesn't. I need this time to be single and figure out who I am and he does too. I don't want to say that we'll never get back together but the odds of it happening are slim. He doesn't want to be with me, I don't know if that means ever or just right now but I'm trying not to worry about that. I have great friends, a fun job, family, and myself to concentrate on for right now. Breaks up are probably one of the hardest lessons in life. For the first three weeks I didn't eat or sleep very much and I was just a mess. I'm better now but I need to work on eating more. I've lost about 10-15 lbs and while it doesn't look unhealthy I just need to tone up my body a little bit and get into better shape. School is going okay. I absolutely hate the 2 hour classes. It's so hard to sit there and concentrate for that long :( I love work, its so much fun and the people are really nice. I'm excited for this weekend, I'm going up to Salem to visit my Claire Bear!!! I'll update later on in the week..sorry that I've been MIA.
Current Location:
My lovely apartment :-)
Current Mood:
calm calm
Current Music:
The traffic going by
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